shillyshallying

have you ever been through some time like there is two things you have to choose and you really don't know which to? this feeling is really annoying and i hate it. it's like you have two bags that you love it so much but you only have enough money to buy one! since last year, i've been thinking whether i should stay for senior three or not. i don't feel like staying is because i don't want to take uec, don't want to spend so much money (i heard every senior three have to spend ALOT of money for the sports meet) and i don't want to lead those juniors for the sport meet. i don't know why, i just think that staying for senior three is a waste of time. but, the reason makes me wanna stay is my club, chinese orchestra, and one of my friend. i really don't wanna leave my club that early, i will be missing them so badly. very very badly. and the special friend of mine, i don't wanna leave her alone here. she will be very lonely. noooooo i won't let things like that happen, hell no! it's really complicated. so dear readers (if i have any), if you were me, how would you choose? this question is really freaking me out.