Merry Christmas!

haven't been blogging properly for quite some time basically because i'm super busy these few weeks! and also me and my Taiwan friend started this 'hobby' on making life videos and posting them to Youtube (as you can see from the previous post). cutting and trimming videos became one of my hobby now ever since & will obviously cut down the amount of time blogging. but don't worry! i will still blog, only when i'm wanted to express something that are unable to be expressed using words, i'll vlog instead & will also post here, so not much changes actually. oh and btw, because this is a decision made  here in Taiwan with my friends, so i'll be speaking my so-called Taiwanese Chinese instead of Malaysia Chinese or English. bare with me ok? because if i speak normally no one understands.

Merry Christmas everyone! just done my awesome homemade steamboat feast with some Malaysian here in friend's room. that was amazing and super full, so satisfying. (fyi we can't cook so we do it not so secretly in our room) and everything done secretly is always better heh. badass.

cried so hard last night i don't even know why? could've be the hormones but still maybe because i'm just really really tired because i didn't sleep the day before. and damn homesick! i miss sherry. a lot. and somemore on christmas day have lessons, can not emo meh? but anyway that was yesterday, now i'm a happy kid with food.

didn't go out to celebrate because 1, i'm fucking single and 2, no point going outside to celebrate where everywhere is packed as hell and 3, homemade steamboat is awesome, so why not? and also i want to blog ma, sacrifice some celebration for you guys loh. hahahahaha not funny.

i've made some pretty easy and simple christmas cards for 6 people, and also sent out 15 post cards out this year christmas. watch out for da boom yo! gave 4 classmates aka Taiwanese friends i usually hang out with, and another two for 2 best friends from China where i usually hang out with on weekends. (yes the two people i mentioned during my previous post). but sadly, one of them may not be able to receive my christmas card because he is gone.....

one month ago when i was at Liau's place at Taichung, i was told that he packed all his luggage and everything in his dorm and left. at first i was super panic because both me and max have no idea where he had been. but max comforted me and ask me not to worry much maybe he's just gone for a few days to meet some friends as usual and so that lowers my concern. i called his cell phone but neither his phone is on service nor pick up. after a few days, he hasn't appear or even contact us and that makes me even more worried, because his parents back in China also couldn't contact him either. one week had passed and things haven't gone better, because according to school's information they were told by the immigration that he had left Taiwan and most likely to be in China now but until now, his parents still had no idea where he went. me and max then lost a gay best friend, ever since.

this is really really saddening because there were no sign that he's planning to leave, he's just normal and happy as he is, what was he thinking? i am really worry, even until now. because what reason can it be to make you leave everyone just like that? is he suffering some sickness? or is he hurt? had he met any problems that are tricky to solve? why can't be just discuss with us, we might can help.

anyways, i still wrote him a letter. i swear this is the saddest card i've ever written. i almost cried because i miss him so much. all i want for christmas is him, seriously. all i want is him to be safe, and come out from where he is hiding and contact with us as soon as possible. i miss you.