confuse

two weeks holiday gone. have to start the hectic and stressful school next monday. why do time pass so freaking fast? two weeks holidays, only today is the day that i get a full day rest. too busy, i must say. hectic life. sometimes i really don't feel like living in this world anymore. maybe i can just die, and rest in peace in heaven. yes. die. i'm just 17 this year, and life is getting this tough. what happens when i get to college, uni, or even when i start working? sometimes, i don't really understand what is the meaning of life? what's the purpose of living in the world? i don't understand ...