hectic

as you know, i've always been a busy person. even in my holidays. all the schedule is fully packed and .. over loaded. i'm not really sure whether this is what i exactly want, but i somehow feel tired and a little frustrating because of how busy and fully packed i am. i have a two weeks school holiday starting this monday. but, i've already spent my one week in school, with my club, and just came back home today. it's really tiring, that i still have to stay in school even in my holidays. and on my second week of holiday, which is next week, i have extra classes. and ya, one week. so i'm been spending my two weeks school holidays in school. sometimes i miss those time when i can go to travel in school holidays and have as much rest as possible. because now, holidays are more tiring than school days. during school days, i sleep at 9pm at night, wake at 5am in the morning. in holidays ( camp in school ) i sleep at 12midnight, and wake up 6am in the morning. what is this? holidays doesn't exists. it makes me more and more tiring.

sometimes i hate myself for being so busy, but nevermind, because i have awesome friends. i mean, if you read my blog occasionally, you will know who are those awesome friends in club. and i find out that, this is my last camp together with them. LAST CAMP. there's one during august, but i'm not attending that as i have other competition to go. how saddening. this is the last camp because they're already senior three this year, and another one is not staying for senior three. i've been quite emo in this camp because it's the last camp i'm gonna spend with them. they're graduating soon. very very soon. i don't want them to leave like seriously... they're the main reason i love my club so much. those feelings when you friends are leaving and you're gonna be alone forever. not to say forever, but, i just don't want them to leave. if they're reading this blog, please do remember that i'll always love you guys. you guys are so far the best human being in the world. best sisters in the world. best senior three in the world. i just can't imagine the day when farewell party arrived. i think i will ...... cry like there's no tomorrow.

throwing apples ...